Getting Ready For The Fall... In More Ways Than One

Fall semester is coming to a head, and I can't help but feel as if I just couldn't give a good god damn. Let me fill you in on what I am and am NOT looking forward to this year.

Classes
Oh, yeah. Looking forward to some learning this semester. I'm taking Accounting II, Business Management, Business Ethics, Social and Political Philosophy, and a Honors Colloquium called The Legacy of Charles Darwin. I'm pretty excited. My good buddy will be in the Philosophy class with me, and I can't wait to put some grad students in their place.

HSO, SJB, FSM, PSA, and BCM
Without going into any great detail as to what aspects of which of these organizations I'm looking forward to, just keep in mind that I'm rather excited about my level of involvement this year. Expect to hear a lot of cool things about these groups.

ALD
Definitely NOT looking forward to these assholes. Don't get me wrong, they're good people, but not in any way MY kind of people. Of the old group, only the president (former VP) is staying on, and I'm not sure if she's staying through the fall or not. I know I'm stuck for the next whole year. The only reason I'm staying on as webmaster at ALL is that the new president turned out to be a total douche and fucking left leaving the new VP in charge. As it turns out, I've taken a liking to this chick. Not the romantic or sexual kind, mind you. She's simply a good person and I'm an overprotective asshole. I'm only gonna stick around at all so she knows I got her back. Expect to hear more soon.

Research
If it ever gets off the ground, and it will, this is looking to be one of my most exciting aspects of the new semester. I've almost completed my work with our religious studies department that'll make me a published author and I've started dialogues with our department of business that'll help me start my honors thesis. That's looking to be a very interesting thing indeed.

Work
I've grown tired of the place I work now, but I can't find a job that offers the same convenience and flexibility. I could get another job on campus, but I wont be gauronteed the same hours and it'll just end up being same shit different place. Really, I'm just tired of working and I'd with my parents would at least throw in for something, but hey, what can you do?

Family
Fuck 'em.

Friends
I'm really looking forward to spending more time with Nick, and Simone and Naomi moved real close to the downtown area. Stephanie leaves for London soon and I think I'm finally okay with that. With any luck I'll make some new friends with my new groups, but I'm more focused on enriching the relationships I already have. Still, keeping my doors open.

Relationships
. . . not even gonna touch that.

Magick Studies
I've started to put some of my own ideas on paper and I'm rather proud of a few of my newfound talents. This semester I hope to expound on these skills and focus on sharpness and detail.

So that's my life. Keep in touch and I'll keep you informed.

Finals are OVER!!!

Whew, it feels good to be out, dunnit? Classes are done and two and a half weeks to de-evolve into a mass of primordial ooze before picking myself back up for the fall. It was an overall good semester, and I'll let it be known when I get my grades in. I'm looking forward to the fall, though. A few business courses, Social and Political Philosophy, and an Honors Colloquium on Charles Darwin. Can't freakin' wait!!!

So, while I have lots to talk about, I'm not gonna bring them up now. Hold your breath 'til I get back!

A quick update and a Rant

Taking summer classes wasn't what I thought it would be. You stay in a class room for 3 hours a day covering an entire weeks worth of material in that time. Fucking crazy, man. I'm taking two classes: Principles of Microeconomics and Philosophy of Religion. And I'll be honest, the class I thought I would love is aight at best, and the class I thought I would hate ended up being fucking amazing. Micro is a lot more fun than I thought it would be, 'specially with the professor I have. The Philosophy class is okay, but its not asking the questions that I want to discuss and that aggravates me a bit.

I started dialogues with our college of business to put together an honors thesis as an undergrad. Funny thing is that no one has ever done this before in our college of business so I have a few professors already lined up and excited. Still, its a lot of footwork and I'm pretty sure I won't be starting the nitty gritty until next fall. That's all right. It gives me plenty of time to figure our just what I'm going to write about and how I want to do it. The basic question I want to ask is this: If an organization that is built to create a profit becomes too big to fail, is it too big to act in that same self interest? I'm pretty excited about it already.

So I've had surprisingly little fun this summer. I've been hanging out with Nick and Travis a good bit, and the three of us have also been gaming with Russel. Thats always fun. I've met up with Stephanie a few times, but she's off to merry ol' England in the fall. Simone and Naomi just got back from their respective vacations, so I've been hanging out with them a good bit. They've moved into an appartment together and I'm helping them move a couch in there tomorrow. Good times, good times.

So, now to my beloved Rants. The topic to today's fustrations is relationhships. I'm at the point in my life where I don't want another fling, I don't want a crazy girlfriend, and I want something serious. The problem is this: Flings are fun, I'm really fucking atracted to crazy women, and I've never pulled off a serious relationship. Its entirely new waters for me, and I don't like it one bit. But even so, the old way of dating just doesn't satisfy me the way it used to, so I don't think i have a choice.

But here's my real delimma. When dating for sex, you can never come right out and say that as your primary intention. It'll get you nowhere. Even if that's what you BOTH WANT, you can't go that rought. You have to be subtle and use subterfuge. No you think that when its clear that you both want something MORE than sex, it should be easier, right? No more of this rediculous banter and empty words, correct? Well that seems to be wrong on just about every level. Things simply get more complicated and the friendly battle becomes an all our war where either both sides when or, more likely, both sides loose and go home unahppy.

So why is this? If both parties want something serious, why is there this wall that keeps them apart? Why can't they simply be open with what they want and who they want to be with?

The best answer I have is that we are all afraid to expose ourselves at that level. I guess that's not a bad thing, really. I mean, if we were that open all the time, relationships wouldn't be that special. I guess you HAVE to build that trust if your gonna get anywhere.

Well, that's all I have boys and girls. Talk to you again soon.

4/20 and forcefully bored

Ugh, its 4/20 and I am officially doing nothing out of shear force of will. Don't get me wrong, I would LOVE to be out with the crew making a complete ass of myself, but with finals coming so close that I can't afford to do anything other than study and write until the end of the semester. Its coming down fast, and I just hope I hit something hard so I don't have to walk away from this trainwreck.

That's not true. In fact, I'm doing quite well all things considered. Its just been stressful as hell, and I just want to sleep.

On a side note, the Honors Student Organization had their elections, and I went from treasurer to president. The bad side of that is that I ran uncontested. In fact, we all did. That worries me a bit.

Either way, I just need to make the next two weeks, and I'll be fine. Finals are all accounted for, and I still need to make my buddies court date, but there's not much keeping me away from getting it all done.

Wish me luck.

SUCCESS!!!

So, I got great news. A few weeks ago I applied to a position on our Student Judicial Board. Last week I was interviewed. Last night I found out that I was accepted. KICK TOTAL ASS!!!

I'm really excited about this. I have a couple of friendlies on there with me, which is a very good thing. Still, parts of the circumstances make me wonder. I have a buddy who's leaving the board, and I read between the lines that they thought I was 'abrasive'. Not sure what to think about that. All I know is that I have to work twice as hard to make my name be heard through the preconceptions. That seems to happens a lot, come to think of it. I guess what it boils down to is that I leave a horrible first impression.

Still, I don't think I'm going to meet any new friends in this gig. I mean, I'll be sure to be friendly, but I doubt that I'll have any sort of heart-to-heart with anyone on there.

Either way, I'm excited as all get out, man. Can't wait to get started!!!

Peace out.